HATE

I hate ppl that wasting their food......
I hate ppl that didnt respect girl......
I hate ppl that say something bad bout my friend......
I hate the ppl that got gf but still always flurt non-stop with others girl.......
I hate ppl that dun respect they parent........
I hate ppl that like to show off......
I hate ppl that say only but do nth........
I hate ppl that act in front of girl..........
I hate ppl that dunno appreciate what they have.........

should i sad bout myself cause i hate so many ppl or should i be happy that cause i hate wat they did mean i not 1 of them...........i dunno........but the fact is i still need to always stay n face this kind off ppl.......wat can i do nth......i really make me suffer........

I hate the lonely night...........
I hate the feeling that jealous off others........
I hate myself that im so weak cause i cant do anything to solve the problem.......
I hate myself when i cant control my emotion........
i hate myself when i dun dare to say out what i wan to say.........

How to say........i really emo lately.......bad things non-stop coming to me 1 by 1........
sometime i really tired with it.......y can i have a normal life n a normal holiday.........

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叫我怎么能不难过, 你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能够怎么说, 怎么说都是错,
你对我说, 离开就会解脱, 试着自己去生活,
试着找寻自我, 别再为爱蹉跎,
只是爱要怎么说出口, 我的心裹好难受,
如果能将你拥有, 我会忍住不让眼泪流,
第一次握你的手, 指尖传来你的温柔,
每一次深情眼光的背后, 谁知道会有多少愁多少愁,
叫我怎么能不难过, 你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能怎么做怎么做都是错,
如果要我把心对你解剖,
只要改变这结果, 我会说我愿意做,
我受够了寂寞,
只是爱要怎么说出口,
我的心裹好难受, 如果能将你拥有,
我会忍住不让眼泪流,
第一次握你的手, 指尖传来你的温柔,
每一次深情眼光的背后, 谁知道会有多少愁多少愁,
爱要怎么说出口, 我的心裹好难受,
如果能将你拥有, 我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手指尖传来你的温柔每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁多少愁叫我怎么能不难过你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能够怎么说怎么说都是错你对我说
离开就会解脱试着自己去生活试着找寻自我别再为爱蹉跎

Holiday!!!!!

Yeah!!!!!!!!finally holiday d lo.........today last day exam and it was totally torturing me cause of two day continue having exam n was the first day 2-4.30 then second day 9 in the morning and i was not well prepare even note also didnt make.......but all past d la.......now c the future la.........wakaka
Haha.......this sems break my group of ppl will having trip like last sems.......n tomorrow will going d........n we will going to Penang........haha the place that i born n grow up n always stay at there until start my uni life just leave there but still the best place to me........haha.......
tomorrow i got important task lo........n it was bring them to play as much as they can and eat as much kind of penang foods as i can.......haha.....it was the thing that i like most play n eat........
Hope that my friend will enjoy the trip to penang la........

Final.......

Please some 1 help me........i really dont feel like having exam lo.......so much thing happen......it just make me no mood study.......i noe i must study d but just......hard to control myself.......i think my self monitoring is really terrible..........
What i did this few day is........playing mahjong wif friend be4 the day having the japanese exam.......i think wont get fail kua......n after tat this few day i play ps2.......cham...... y suddenly my house got ps2......y now........gailo.........
Then.......today when i jogging at the garden i suddenly hear some sound n cause of curious i go find out what it is........end up i found it was 2 bout 1 week puppy that even they eye havent open at the construction place wif lot of grass.......they both are wet n cold out there cause just rain heavily just now......after that i decided to bring them to my friend place first......cause i cant find any bitch near there n i leave them at there they sure cant survive.......after bring it to my friend house i blow them hair dryer n try to feed them some milk but they was too small d they even dunno how to eat......hai......i really dunno what should i do lo.......if i can manage to take care of them i sure will but.......i cant......if i keep them they just will die cause of hunger n after discuss with my friend i decide to bring them back to the place i found them.......but no really the some place cause the place i found them the condition really is too bad so i put so where near there with roof so that even raining they also dun need get wet......hope they mom faster go back find them la........hai.........

Suddenly........

Suddenly my life become so dark
Suddenly u just stay so far away from me even u just in front of me
Suddenly i just realize that u are so important to me
n
was more than i can imagine
Suddenly i just knew that how i feel toward u
but i think it was already too late


sometime i got a feeling that maybe i should just leave n stay away from u
and you will be more happy without me.......
maybe the present that i make for u i should give to others to give you,
i think like that u will be more happy n i also can c the smile from u.
sometime i really very hate myself n asking y??
y, i just cant make thing right........
i really hate make choice........
because when i make choice that mean i need to give up something.......
i just wan a simple life......
i dun need lot of money or other thing......
as long as enough for me can d.......
i just wan dun need to worry........
but it just too hard......
i hope i can be more happy......
but all the thing that happen to me is bad........
i had learn my lesson but can u tell me what should i do to make things right........
all i wan is a chance ........
a chance to fix the thing tat i had break......

sorry friend lately i really quite emo lo........so the thing i write all is sad 1........hope next time i write was gud news la.........

Short sems.......(grandmom)

Many thing happen in this short sems......but most are bad thing so i quite hate this sems n now it was almost end d......just left ten day......just left the most headache 1 final exam.......

A lot of thing happen n i think i change cause of thing tat happen to me.......this sems i becum not that talk active.......dunno is good thing or bad thing n this sems when go class i always like day dreaming......first 2week still ok but after tat when at class i always think bout others thing......
i think the thing happen that affect me most is my grandmom past away.......she is the 1 that take care me when i was little n was the 1 tat care me most........to her i'm the best grandson........cause the incident when i was little she say i was pick back my life 1........n strange 1 is even tat time i was just bout 2 years old i still remember wat happen n how it happen n wat they say that time......
When she suffer i really hope i can do something for her.......but i just cant do anything.......bit regret last time didnt spend more time with her when she was still healthy.......think back she was quite pity.......in her life she spend all her life to take care of her children but end up her son n daughter just dun1 to take care of her......just few willing to do so......n my dad is 1 of it......so i really love my dad.......all my uncle they just cant stand when my grandmom say them but my dad will always smile to her n never scold her.......how bout me le.......haha i was just like didnt listen......n talk rubish to her just to change the topic......wakaka......
i feel tat this world is so fake......especially human........i got a feeling tat i wan to scold my uncle n aunty ......but i didnt do it cause i know if i do so just will let my grandmom even more sad.......lucky my eq still not bad.......
think back when the time i take care of her sometime quite funny also......as i say my grandmom spend all her time on her son so she didnt have friend n didnt have entertainment 1.......the only thing is watch wrestling......so i buy a lot of wwe pay per view that time almost 3 years 1 pay per view all i got buy.......then i just play n watch with her.......n when night it will like the money not enough 2.......tat time i was sleep with my grandmom in the same room then i was sleep upstair 1 bed......so everyday 3or 4am my grandmom will call me......."leong ar......i hungry d.......hungry still wan die d lo......"(ps-tat time my grandmom already eat a lot 1.....just tat she will always forget she eat already n wan eat again)then i go make milo for her.......sometime 1 night 2-3 time......so tmr morning when i go school i always fishing......
i still remember after she dead 1 month......i dream of her......n in the dream i noe tat she already dead......n when i c her i very happy......n when i walk near she just disappear but lucky when i nearer i c her again......n i ask her do u still remember me? do u know who am i?(i always ask her this be4 she dead cause tat time she start to forget thing d......n sad 1 is she forget me d.......maybe in her mind i still was a littler kid n i change a lot) after tat my eye got a lot of tears n i wake up......i really miss her.......i always do......
write until here la......next time continue write bout other thing tat happen to me......

Cray.........let me introduce myself........

Im Cray.....this name was come from 1 of comic that i like most......flame of recca烈火の炎...... it was 1 of the character that in the comic tat at first was a bad guy but the end he actually is a good guy just because of the person he like n care being control by some1 n force him to do something that he dont wan to do........at first he was wearing a mask because he wan to hiding his feeling....... i think that was 1 of the reason i like this character........ cause i also used to hiding myself.......wat i think n how i feel i usually will keep in my heart......
As most of my friend noe......im a quite playful guy.......i like to play sport......like to playing around.......for me the most important thing is happy n i like to c my friend happy too so sometime i dun mind to act like a fool as long as every1 happy can d......maybe u will think im stupid but i just like to like tat......i dun like to scold ppl n i hate the feeling when i hate some1 cause it make me unhappy too......but sometime i just make something wrong tat even i also dunno tat i make some1 feel annoying......sorry for tat.......i really dunno what happen.......i really no......
sometime i just like to follow my feeling to doing thing......so sometime i do some stupid stuff n say something wrong.......hope didnt hurt any1 la.......if i really do please tell me......
i think i still changing n changing cause of wat happen around me......but there are few thing i wont change n there are something i just wont do it......hope u all understand.......